Texas Lady

On Tuesday night we had Maximus euthanized, along about midnight.  At about 8:30 or 9:00 we were sitting on the couch watching television.  Ronnie was on the loveseat.  I was on the couch with Buffy.  Maximus was playing with one of the puppies’ balls he’d found.  It had a squeaker in it and he was squeaking it and squeaking it while he was in his crate.  We laughed about it and I worried a little that he might swallow it and choke.  A few minutes later he came out of his crate with the little yellow ball and jumped up on the couch between me and Buffy.  He dropped the ball on the couch at his feet, turned to look at Buffy suspiciously as if she might take the ball from him….and lunged at her grabbing her by the throat and shaking her violently.  I sprung forward and grabbed Buffy just as Ronnie arrived to grab Max and pried his mouth off Buffy.  I ran with Buffy in my arms to my office and slammed the door.  I could feel the blood and was afraid to look at the damage.  I just knew I’d see her jugular gushing bright red blood.

Luckily she had puncture wounds on her neck and back but no gushing, gaping wounds.  Ronnie had put Max back in his crate.  We wrapped Buffy in a big towel and left for the animal ER.  By the time we arrived I knew that Maximus had to be put down.  This was his fourth attack in less than 18 months.  We couldn’t take any more chances with him.  He attacked each time with no provocation, with no advance warning and then with no understanding that he’d done anything wrong.  He was a loving, lovable, sweet, goofy big dog 99% of the time.  It was the 1% that we could no longer deal with.  What if next time the animal he attacked didn’t live through it?  What if next time (and we knew there’d be a next time) it was a human, a child.  We knew we had a loaded gun with no safety in Maximus.  There was no turning back this time no matter how bad it hurt to make that decision.

They took Buffy in immediately and started her on some painkillers and checked that she was stable.  She was the second poodle there that had been attacked by a mastiff.  What are the odds?  We talked with the veterinarian and she agreed to euthanize Maximus that night.  I was afraid I’d back out and ultimately put someone or someone’s child or animal at risk if I waited until the next day.  So we went home and got him, now acting like nothing was wrong just like he always did.  And we took that sweet, big, goofy dog and handed him over to the tech.  We said goodbye to him and watched him walk away for the last time.

They kept Buffy overnight and I picked her up at 7 A.M.  They had installed a drain in her neck where the skin had been pulled away.  She is on pain meds and new antibiotics.  But she’s alive.  I’m so, so happy for that!!!!!!!!  Such a sweet little dog should never have had to endure this trauma.  I took her to the vet yesterday to get checked out.  There was some bad results for her liver and kidney functions when they did her blood work at the ER.  Her liver tests were slightly elevated but her BUN (kidney) test was triple what it should have been.  This isn’t from the trauma but could possibly be affected by the trauma.  We don’t know how long she’s had these elevated enzymes.  So now I am injecting Ringers solution subcutaneously to help give her more hydration and help flush her system.  In 2 weeks we’ll rerun the blood work and see if it’s come down any.  The beginning of next week I’ll take her in to have her drain and staples removed which will make her more comfortable, I’m sure.  She has some stitches and some hellacious bruises which will only mend in time.  We may have to put her on prescription dog food to treat the kidney issues, but we can do that, too.

Maximus was never a mean dog.  If he were the decision to euthanize him would have been an easy one.  There was something in Maxie’s brain that just didn’t function properly.  He was taking 3 Prozac capsules daily and that calmed him down fairly well, but occasionally he would snap for no good reason at all.  Hell, we could never figure out a reason for any of his attacks.  They were never after any kind of preamble, not even a growl.  He would, out of the clear blue sky, just lunge at a dog’s throat and start shaking them.  The first time it was a 15 pound fluffy neighborhood dog walking down the street; thankfully he didn’t shake him but nipped him deep enough to have to have antibiotics.   The 2nd and 3rd times were at 30 pound Bandit in our own house, this time was the 4th with 14 pound Buffy.  He would go from complete calm to a snarling, raging, driven maniac.  When we broke his grip on the dogs he would be Maximus again, big, goofy Max.  There was just something wrong in his head somewhere.

We are definitely in the grieving process now.  I still cry several times per day.  I still remember the sweet little things that he would do and how he would lay on the couch with his head in my lap totally relaxed with his “momma”.  It hurts.  It will probably hurt for a while yet.  But I made the right decision.  It was the only thing I could have done.  It’s different around here.  All of a sudden the biggest dog in the house is gone; that leaves a big void.  Max had the loudest voice, the largest crate, the most energy and the softest heart.  Today we took down his crate and moved the furniture in the living room.  It hurt to see his empty crate sitting there each day, but now that it’s gone I think I miss him even more.  We gave him a good life; I just wish it could have ended differently for him and for us.

Rest in peace, Maximus.  We love you, big boy!

This week I’ve actually been able to carve out some pieces of time to sew.  I’m trying to finish all the projects I had started or have bought fabric for in the past 3 years.  Yesterday I made 4 pillowcases; today I made the other 4 pillowcases.  I finished the tote bag that needed handles and next I’m going to make the valances for my home office window.  I found some beautiful purple satin fabric with embroidered butterflies on it.  Since I love both purple and butterflies it was a no-brainer, however, they only had 2 yards of it left.  Of course, I bought it all and am now hoping I can make it work for the pattern I have in mind.

Other than that, I went to jury duty on Monday and was there most of the day but I didn’t get selected for a jury and only had to call in every evening to see if I were needed for the following day.  I never did get called then got released on Thursday night.  So much for the drama of the court!

The dogs are all doing well though I sometimes feel like a pharmacist as I pass out pills, liquids in syringes and apply various ointments twice per day.  Two weeks ago we found out that Keira has demodex mange so we are treating that daily and it seems to be responding to treatment, slowly but in a positive manner.  Buffy’s skin infection is proving just as difficult to cure as the first time she had it last year.  She’s on the 3rd antibiotic and it doesn’t seem much, if any, better.  We are giving Gino and Dusty tummy meds twice per day.  Maximus takes Prozac twice a day.  Jolie takes Lasix and Themophyline twice a day.  Buffy takes Rimadyl and her antibiotic (and I give her glucosamine for her joint pain); she was on an oral antibiotic, too, but has finished that one.  Keira takes meds for the demodex every evening.  Then, before bed Jolie has a nebulizer treatment.  If she’s having a bad day we’ll do more than one treatment.  If it’s terribly acute she has a narcotic liquid cough suppressant but we try to stay away from that if we can.  Did I leave anyone out?  I’m glad everyone doesn’t run out at the same time or I’d have to go back to work just to keep up!

Anyway, I’m enjoying my retirement immensely except for these little concerns.  And I’d have the same canine concerns if I were still working; I’d just be exhausted at the same time just like I was for so many years.  I will be retired 7 months on the 29th of May and I think sometimes that I get happier the longer I’m free.  We are taking estimates for some tree removal and landscaping in the front yard.  Hopefully that will get accomplished some time in the coming week.  I’m going to take before and after photos (did you expect ME not to take pictures?  LOL).

Purple pillowcases

Green/silver pillowcases

Model 99K Singer

Ronnie had the day off today, so he watched the animals all day so I could sew.  What a wonderful guy I’m married to!!!!!!!!

So, this is what I did: I hemmed 2 pair of jeans that have been hanging on the back of the door for about 6 months.  Since I’ve lost 20 pounds I’ll more than likely end up altering them, too, now.  But they’re hemmed anyway.  Then, I bound the seams on the Babylock covers I made for my machines.  They had begun to fray and every time I removed them to sew I went, “Ewwwww!”.  Fixed!  Then I made the pattern for a tote bag I’ve been wanting to make for myself.  I had drawn it out on paper but hadn’t cut it out or made the pattern to cut it out.  Then I made the tote bag, too!  It’s all done except I want to put webbing handles and didn’t have any black, so that has to wait.  But I love the bag!

Also, we opened the box that contained the Model 99K Singer we bought that was delivered Monday.  I threaded it and it sews but have yet to try to mend Bandit’s harnesses with it.  I looked up the serial number online and it was manufactured in 1956 so it’s an authentic antique, too.  Altogether it’s been a great day for me.  Tomorrow is another day.  I have fabric to make pillow cases out on my cutting table.  Will I get to make them?  Stay tuned!

14″ inside zipper pocket & 10″ slipper pocket

20″ x 20″ tote bag

Front of tote bag

Man!  Between dogs and sewing I’m spending a load of money…and I’m retired, what does that tell you?  Last week I toted my big combo machine to my sewing class.  The machine weighs 38 pounds.  The rolling bag it goes in weighs about another 10.  Lifting all that in and out of the car and up and down on the table is not good for my aging back.  It so happened that Ronnie and I both arrived home at the same time that day so he unloaded the car for me.  I told him that I know we weren’t made of money but I just can’t carry that machine around every time I go to a class (which I hope to be fairly often now).  He thought I had gone to a class about that machine and that was why I’d taken it.  He said he agreed that I should not carry that machine (the most expensive one I’ve ever owned) around in the car in case I damage it or someone runs their car into mine and damages it.  I never expected him to agree so readily to buy me another sewing machine.  You could have knocked me over with a feather!

So, on Friday (first chance I had) I went sewing machine shopping.  The second place I went I bought a Pfaff.  It happened to be the same dealer I bought my Babylocks from; they also sell the Pfaff line.  I didn’t even get to take it out of the box on Friday (too much going on).  On Saturday I played with it a bit and was greatly underwhelmed.  I really didn’t care for it much at all.  Wah!  I thought, well, maybe it’d grow on me, but I happened to read a post on a sewing forum that said a new machine should “sing to you”.  This new machine didn’t sing to me or anyone else around here.  It didn’t even hum!  How was I going to tell Ronnie after he’d been so wonderful about it all?

I researched all night trying to figure out what machine would do if the Pfaff didn’t.  Even after taking a sleeping tablet I didn’t sleep.  By the time Ronnie got up at 3:30 to go to work I had the machine packed in the box and he loaded it in the car for me.  I lay down about 5:30 and slept for a few hours then took it back to the store.  I didn’t know how the dealers would react since they’d already registered the machine to me.  To make a long story short, they were wonderful about the whole thing.  Since I knew the exact machine I wanted (another Babylock) and it cost a little more, all I had to do was to pay the difference and it was a done deal.  Whew!  I expected to have to pay a restocking fee and the difference in price, so that was a big relief.  Cost another $216 dollars and I took her home.  And I love her!!!!!!!!!  She sings for me.  I’ve already drawn up a pattern and have her threaded and ready to go.  If I can get a break from these dogs I’m gonna sew, sew, sew.

Today the puppies went back to the vet for their next vaccination boosters.  The bigger one, Keira, is up to 5.3 pounds; the smaller girl is at 2 pounds even.  The vet said they think they have an adopter for Keira which would be wonderful since she has to share love with the other animals here and with the new lady she’d get all the love.  The lady had to put her elderly Chi to sleep this morning and was so distraught, but brightened when told about Keira.  Sounds like just the thing to mend a broken heart!

Right after I got home I received a phone call from Buffy’s family.  Her human momma had had a heart attack and passed away; could I please come get Buffy?  I didn’t even put any shoes on to walk around the corner and bring her home.  Poor little girl doesn’t know what is going on and why she’s back at our house but now this will be her home.  Her human dad is very upset with losing his wife but thought first about caring for Buffy.  We’re thankful for that.  She’ll be cared for here even if it adds to our brood.  We’d never leave her out in the cold, but we’ve got to get some dogs adopted!

Babylock Elizabeth

Buffy

Buffy Too

I spent Wednesday in the Bag Ladies group at my local sewing shop and had a great time even though I had to finish my bag after I got home.  We sewed from 10 A.M. to 4 P.M., straight through lunch and still didn’t finish.  But it only took me an hour or so after I got home to get it done.  Now I have a Mother’s Day gift and a new pattern to make myself a purse from.  I already have the fabric I want to use; it’s an old shirt that is faux suede and is elaborately embroidered already.  I’ll line it with beige duck canvas just like this one was lined with white duck canvas.  When I first cut this out (it seemed like a million pattern pieces out of 4 different fabrics) I thought I’d never want to do another one with this particular pattern.  But once it got done and I understood the construction of it I’m ready to tackle another one.  What do you think?

Lining

Inside zipper pocket

Finished product

Today has been all about sewing.  I went to the fabric shop this morning and bought supplies for the event Wednesday and talked to the teacher, Georgia.  She seems like a really nice lady and I’m looking forward to spending the day sewing with her.  I have to prepare all my fabrics/patterns/etc. prior to class  but still spent the day doing sewing for myself.  I finally opened the tote bag pattern I bought last week and did something productive with it.  I must admit that I spent some time ripping out seams because of amendments that didn’t work, but it worked out in the end (as far as I’m concerned).  I was making a gift for a family member and Ronnie suggested I make a matching bag for her child.  Wonderful idea!  And done!

Played with the dogs before sewing and they’re all doing marvelous.  Keira was spayed, micro-chipped and had a dew claw removed yesterday.  According to doctor’s orders she must be kept in a crate for 7 days.  Poor little puppy thinks she’s being punished because she can’t play like she’s used to.  She’s looked so sad today.  It’s hard to keep them penned up when they feel like being free.  We finally crated the rest of the dogs and set Keira free; that way she wasn’t tempted to get too excited, and it worked famously.  She’s now exhausted and sleeping peacefully.

I’ve been researching vintage Singer sewing machines the past few days because we need a machine that is strong enough to use to repair leashes, collars and harnesses for the dogs.  Bandit especially will chew up his harness if he’s left alone in it, and they are expensive, especially for the bigger dogs.  I just purchased one from someone who is a member of the same online group as me.  It’s a Singer 99.  I have no idea how old it is but they were manufactured between about 1911 and 1962, so it’s an O-L-D machine, but it works well and will hopefully work for what we need.  This may be a really interesting adventure; you never know.

Singer 99

Mommy & Me Bags

I just got the pictures taken of the small bags we made in class last week.  I’ll probably never use them for anything (they’re not my “type” of bag) but, as I said before, I’ll surely use the knowledge I gained by making them in my future projects.  I have fabric to make 3 large, lined tote bags in my sewing room which will be my next foray into the sewing world.  Next week we’re having a get-together to sew a tote bag in a group called (you guessed it!) “Bag Ladies”.  I paid for the class this morning.  Tomorrow I’ll go buy my supplies so I can have it all cut out and prepped for next week.  Wish me luck!!!!!!!!

Jewelry Bag Closed

Jewelry Bag Outside

Inside Jewelry Bag

Clutch open

Clutch closed

Finally I got to devote some time to sewing!  Yesterday and today I participated in two Babylock seminar/workshops locally.  We had instruction and information in the mornings then in the afternoon we sewed projects.  Yesterday we each made a clutch bag; today we made jewelry travel bags.  Neither project was absolutely perfect and I’ll probably not do these projects again, but I will definitely use the knowledge I gained and the tricks I learned on the projects I have planned.  (I’ll take some photos and post them tomorrow)  And it gave me some ME time outside the house, away from the dogs, even if it meant they had to remain crated longer than normal.  Sometimes I just have to put myself first for my own sanity.  These two days were definitely “reclaiming my sanity” days.

I’m ready to be productive again; it’s been too long for my liking.  The puppies are getting old enough now that I think I’ll be able to start sewing again here at the house.  Friday Keira will get spayed and micro-chipped and have a floating dew-claw removed but, other than that and getting my nails done one day, it should be an easy week…..I hope.  Keira will follow wherever I go in the house (or outside, for that matter) but Zoe will get stuck in one room and if I walk away she won’t follow, then she will sit and cry until I come and get her.  I will pick her up and put her in the doggie bed in my sewing room and she’ll sit in there and play with any other dogs that come around, and she’s content to just hang out.  I jockey the others from crate to freedom all day and if I need to do something which requires any amount of brainpower I will crate a lot of the dogs so they don’t distract me or cause me to do something unsafe.  It’s not like their crates are prison.  They each have at least 2 or 3 (sometimes more) fleece blankets color-coded for specific dogs in their particular crates.  Some are embroidered with their names.  Max has about 8 blankets, an old comforter and a sleeping bag (because of the density of the padding for a 90 pound dog’s crate).  They have food bowls inside their crates (the puppies have water and food).  They all have toys to play with or chew on, so they’re not exactly being injured if I make them go to their crates so I can do something that has nothing to do with them.  I have multiple patterns to make for the dogs as well that I haven’t been able to even start since I’ve been so busy.  Right now I see in my crystal ball that there is sewing in my near future.  Abracadabra!!!!!!!!!

Today Ronnie didn’t have to work so we’ve just kicked back, played with the dogs, watched a lot of television, updated our rescue website, etc., just a lazy, happy day.  I’m sure if I’d tried harder I could have accomplished something but I really didn’t give a damn.  It was nice to have my husband home and happy, and to enjoy our animal children.  I took a bunch of photos but the one above will give you an idea how big the puppies are getting and how their coloration is developing.  They were both solid white when we brought them home but now they’re turning a caramel color in places.  That’s what Bandit did, too.  When we got him he was mostly white and the colors developed over time.  He’s a beautiful dog and has a wonderful personality besides; he’s been a lovely addition to our canine family and will be 3 years old in July (we’ve had him since he was 8 weeks old).

I got my jury summons in the mail yesterday so I know where I’ll be at the end of May.  I haven’t been called for years so I really can’t complain.  Since I’m retired I have plenty of time and don’t have to deal with trying to get time off work.  This will be different.

I signed up for a sewing seminar on Friday; it’ll be the first with my new serger.  I am supposed to get instructional classes with both of my new machines but between my schedule and the shop’s schedule that hasn’t happened yet.  So this will be the first class at this particular shop.  Maybe I can get some of my questions answered while I’m there.  They also have one on Saturday for sewing but I haven’t signed up yet.  I’ll see how I like this one and go from there.  I really hope I like them because I’ve loved every other class I’ve taken anywhere else.  There’s a great class of people who do sewing and I find myself enjoying their company no matter what the class has been for or where it was held.  I hope that holds with this shop.

Ronnie’s family lost another member today due to a brain aneurysm.  She was only in her 20’s and was an only child so it is a big loss to her parents.  It’s always sad when a parent loses a child; it’s not supposed to work that way but it does far too often….sigh….

OMG has it been busy lately!!!!!!!!  I’ve vacillated between busy as hell and tired as hell for the past couple of weeks.  I don’t think there’s an in-between anymore!  By adding 3 dogs to the pack (total of 10 dogs now) I have lost the little time I had for myself.  I’ve only had a couple of hours to sew since we got the pups last month.  I intended to sew today and let Ronnie babysit the dogs but I was too tired to give a damn.  I wouldn’t take anything for the puppies but I didn’t know they would be so time-consuming.  Guess it’s been too long since we had puppies around here, but I can’t let them out of their crates unattended, they have to be watched outside or inside, and that eats up so much time.  I was already circulating the dogs in and out of crates but at least the big dogs didn’t have to be monitored so closely; I could let them run free for a bit before I did the next swap.  The good thing is that they’re growing, happy and healthy.  They went to their first adoption event on Saturday and got a lot of attention.

Here is Ronnie eating a Cuban sandwich and watching the babies on the patio of the vet clinic where the adoption event/garage sale was taking place.  I had left my camera at home so was taking photographs with my phone.  So far I think I’m the only volunteer that took any pictures at all.  Pups in the photo are Keira, the white female Chihuahua puppy, and Gino, the brown male Chihuahua.  They were both very well-behaved and the weather was gorgeous.  Our rescue organization made about $1300, too.  Can’t beat that with a stick!

Being so busy has really messed up my WW program, too.  I’ve been so distracted that the past week my program went to hell.  I’m intent on getting control of it again this week.  I’m beginning to get my head together again ( I think, I hope) and that’s at the top of my agenda.  I don’t have as many appointments this week as I did last week and Ronnie is doing much better post-op and doesn’t have another doctor’s visit until the end of next week.  I have some phone calls and some “ME” appointments (facial, nails) and I have to get ahold of Maximus’ trainer and figure out how we’re going to handle that.  Two dogs have to go in for grooming but no more vet visits until the 22nd (for the puppies), thankfully.  Vet visits are 35 miles round-trip and sometimes I go 2 or 3 times a week.  That is very time-consuming, as well, but you do what you have to do when you do rescue.

I had sewn a few small toys with bells inside for the puppies to play with and intended to make some “cat toys” to sell at adoption events and that’s all I’ve done sewing-wise for over a month.  I have so many projects ready to be started or finished and so many more in my head yet to come, but they’ll have to wait while I play catch-up with my life.  It had really started to get the best of me toward the beginning of the week, but I’ve felt a lot better the past few days so I hope I’m coming out of my slump.  It’s supposed to be a pretty week and that always helps the Seasonal Affective Disorder slump I go through.  I have my fingers crossed anyway.